Welcome to my life........

Yeah, so school started, sorta……………..fricken FAY tore a hole in that dream…kids started school last Monday, had Tuesday off, and again on Friday…………..Can we say BORED !?!?!?!!? More alcohol PLEASE !!!! ..

So Fay passed………..Next storm…… taking Alexx to the eye doctor….she been squinting for a year, just kinda passed it off…..check it later…………yeah, well, she's 20/60. Not bad, but she couldn't read the first line of letters. God, everyone can read the FIRST LINE !!!!! Okay. Lovely. Glasses it is.

Um, no! Alexx thought she should get contacts right off the bat !!! Um, NO !!! When you can keep your room from looking like Katrina went thru, and not lose your homework 6 hours before school starts,,,,,,,,,,,,MAYBE you can have contacts. So, my pre teen years begin……………….she knows braces are in her future too…………..another hell alcohol will walk me thru………….

We went to the eye doc, he did his tests….all fine and dandy….."go pick out some frames" he says…….k, right on that…….Um yeah…….You're talking Fendi, Christian Dior, Candies, Versace………….yeah, got all that money for $300 frames ………um,,,not so much……….ya got anything under $100 that some absent-minded 11 year old can handle?????

Oh, and she is NOT cooperating in the least !!! Arms folded over chest, lip sticking out, and everything me and the all-so-helpful-salesperson suggested was met with another stick of the bottom lip and tears pouring down the cheeks. I am past feeling sorry for her cuz she is just pissing me off…….it's a grab to the back of the neck and a nice pinch…….."Go sit your ass down and wait for me" whisper in the ear…..yeah, that didn't go unnoticed by the rest of the staff……….Bad Mommy.

Oh no, it's not over yet……..they want to dilate her eyes yet…..great……back in we go….the doc says to her…"I know you are having this argument with your mom about contacts…but you can't have both. With contacts you still have to have a pair of glasses, that's why we want you to pick out a pair first". Thank you, however that went over like shit!!

We left, with prescription in hand, and will go frame shopping in the future. For cheaper, expendible ones!!! She still refuses…..I can't MAKE her wear them……so fine….wait till you get headaches and your eyes feel like they want to explode out of your head………………..GRRRRR!!

Why should I spend the money on something I can't enforce? I can make her wear them out the door but as soon as I am out of sight she will take them off…they sit in her bag, get scratched and broken or lost……….what's the point???? Help here !!!!!

And next…..my fucking gym is closing………..GRRRRRRRRRRRR!!!!! Not even 2 years ago I bought, on ebay, a life long membership, good world-wide, paid it in full for $600. I live between 2 Bally's. The one I go to, the one that is closing, is just breaths away from my house….I just paid my 2008 dues of $167 in July. I live about 10 miles from the other Bally's. The one I will have to go to now…..Can I say PISSED???

I know, 10 whole miles…..um YEAH !!!! at 5:00am that means a lot !! Do YOU get up at 4:50 to get to the gym by 5:30am? No, I didn't think so….now I will have to get up even earlier!!! Now shuffle my gym time, Roger's gym time and getting 2 kids to school by 8:30 every morning !!

OH !! You say, CANCEL???? You have to DIE to cancel a Bally's membership!! I kid you not !!!! Google it. It's nothing buy horror stories !!!

Rog wants to join the Cardio Club just up the street. This place ROCKS !!! They supply the towels, got yoga and ab classes all day long…. AND their cardio machines have TV's on them !!! WOO HOO !!! Yeah, and we can get a couples membership for $25/month total !!! Um….but what about the $167 I already paid? Um…….gone…..gone……….gone……and next July……….due again………even tho I don't go???? WTF???

Oh? The In Laws? Oh yeah they still here…I'm tolerating that. Long story and I am not in the mood………..

Let's talk about Roger. Remember he had that gastro pain, bad blood test thing? Yeah. It not any better. The Hepatitis all came back negative but still the pain….Today he went back to doc cuz he had that pain under his ribcage, dead center where that little "v" is. They sent him to a gastro doc this afternoon. Now tomorrow they are putting him under for some procedure, sticking a microscope down his throat to see what's up. We are guessing ulcers or…………taking out his gallbladder……………WTF !?!?!?!?

At this point I don't know what to think.

I am numbing myself tonight, he is sleeping, kids are in bed, I have cleaned my house out of pent up boredom, frustration and anxiety, just trying to keep busy.

My best friend had her gallbladder removed and it didn't heal right and it was 2 years of hell for her….tell me it's not always like that…..

Roger has 4 interrelated (real estate, mortgage, insurance, title) companies that I can't run on my own. You all know the housing industry…If he is incapacitated what the hell do I do??? This is our livelihood. Our bread and butter. I'm nervous. Scared.

K, that's where I'm at today, right now…….Let's see where tomorrow takes us after the 10:00am procedure………

Night. Sorry, no pics to go along with this one, and sorry it's so long and depressing………welcome to my world…………….PPPPLLLLBBBBB!!!