No Candy Hearts For Me

Happy Fricken Valentines. Yippie. Woo Hoo. What a waste of a holiday.

We went to the gym together, and that’s where all the niceties ended. By noon we were at each other’s throats. We were supposed to go shopping this afternoon. But I ended up going alone. Just as well. What man enjoys bra shopping? LOL But that’s beside the point.

It’s now 1am and we’ve said less than 10 words to each other all day. I couldn’t sleep and the longer I laid in that bed the more worked up I got. He slept on the couch all fricken day, and most of the evening. Then comes to bed and rolls over and goes right to sleep. GRRRR Leaves the kids to me, as usual.

His final words of the day to me were: “What’s for dinner?” I said I don’t know, made something up for the kids and ignored him. Hungry? Make something. Am I wearing some big white poofie hat that says “Cook” on it?

And I am getting so angry and resentful at the office. I can’t listen to those other 2 girls complain about him anymore. He’s a terrible boss. Has no people skills when it comes to communication. He thinks they, and ME, are uneducated and unqualified to have opinions, ideas or thoughts. We are just supposed to do what we are told. Yes, even me.

It’s been 3 years since I agreed to work with him. And I have yet to receive a paycheck. He refuses to pay me. I feel so used. Taken for granted. And unappreciated. It’s not that I even NEED the money so much as it is the principle. How can he feel like he can treat me like this? I just don’t get it.

But I’m getting angrier and angrier. He is impossible to work for. There’s no pleasing him. And the girls are so frustrated. But he won’t listen to anyone. Everything is HIS way, it’s the ONLY way and there’s NOTHING ANYONE can say to change that. I can’t listen to the girls anymore. It’s putting a bad taste in my mouth and I can’t stand it anymore.

I am going to have to put the blinders on, go in, do what I have to, and get out of there . Avoiding any conversation with them. It’s too infuriating.

Thank God there’s no school on Monday. I have a reason to stay home.

Oh, I did something today that I haven’t done in a couple years. I read a book. A BOOK !!! The entire thing. 29 chapters. In one afternoon. I didn’t realize I missed doing that.

Why can’t I sleep? Being in that bed with him makes my skin crawl right now. Guess I’ll just stay out here. I wonder how long it will take him to notice, and will he even bother to come see where I am?