Tuesday, September 30, 2008

She Leaves

I have been counting the minutes till I can sit down and write this….forgive my typos….I'm am too hyped up to correct them ALL !!...:


MIL (mother in law from India) spent her last weekend at our house. She arrived Sat morn….round noonish. She spent the afternoon with headphones on, on the computer watching movies online………………INDIA movies. Hence, no conversation….



We made fajitas for dinner….that basically consisited of grilled chicken which we sliced up with all the fixins. Eat them how you want. My kids ate them without the tortilla. MIL attempted but apparently it was to chewy for the flasies. (teeth). Hey, all okay, every one was full, mission accomplished.



Alexx jetted off to the neighbors, a girl there in her grade, rents our rental, become best of buddies. That turned into a sleepover with another girl.



MIL proceeded to 'take a nap' after dinner. I cleaned up. She wanted to help but loving Roger says to her "leave it, Vicki will get it". OKAYYY !!! The remark wasn't appreciated but the fact that it was MY kitchen and I like things MY way was just fine with me. Blood pressure maintains…



I had a move from Netflix. I put it in, asked Roger if he would watch it with me, asked him to invite his mother to watch with us…..at 7:30 she apparently is already sleeping….okay….quiet time with hubby…….bear in mind…NO sex in over a week here…………



No sex in a week=one BITCHY ASS WIFE !!!



Let me explain something to you guys………..women withOUT sex are like women on PMS !! You can't tell the difference. We wear the same mask.


PUT OUT !!!! Maybe it's just me…but if I don't get laid after the 3rd or 4th day….it's like CPR. You have to work overtime to bring back the dead. I have already resigned to fact that I'm not getting any, EVER AGAIN. I am DEAD to you. Not only do I not WANT it anymore, I am not INTERESTED in getting any….



K, back to the movie, we watch it , alone. Alexx (daughter) is next door on sleepover and son is waiting for movie to get over for his place on couch as MIL is in his bed.



Movie over…………yup. NOOOOOOOOOOOOO sex !!! WTF???? You KNOW I want it, I'll be damned if I'm gonna beg for it !!! FUCK YOU !!! ZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZ.



Morning comes….slept like shit….1am watching tv……4 am watching tv…FINALLY at 5am he gets a fucking clue…………………but thanks to the fact that it's been over a week………I wanted it so bad……….I couldn't even get mine…………….FUCK !!!!!!!



Off to the gym we go……..back home……..oh look, MIL is back on puter watching Indian movies online. Go figure. That went on alllll ficken day !!!



What is Vicki to do????? OH HELL !! I was in adrenaline mode….I cleaned the shit out of everything !!!



You know those shitty kitchen cabinets you take out and put in the garage when you get new ones from Home Depot? Yup? Scrubbed those suckers down. Greasy ass fingerprints inside and out. Screen doors? Scrubbed. Windows? Inside and out? Sparkling !!!



See, Brother Rengy, Mr. Rich in Daytona, has a cleaning woman that comes every Tuesday. I don't have that. I have to clean my OWN house. And I don't give a shit, Sunday just might be cleaning day!! I fucking mopped right in front of her. I hope she got a new prespective on "Roger's wife" cuz SHE cleans her OWN house !!! I fuckin did the damn dishes by hand !!! This ain't no 4 STAR hotel here!



So, what the hell was I supposed to do? Sit on the couch and watch her watch movies and watch my husband sleep???? (Forgive me, he did wash and wax his car and blew out the garage for me like I asked, so no negativity towards the hubby today at all)



MIL sits on couch all day watching movies online. Logan gets a phone call to go boating with a friend. What am I to do? Say NO? Alexx did her sleepover so by all means Logan gets to do his friend thing…………



Logan goes boating, Alexx is in and out all day….MIL is still watching movies online, I'm a cleaning fiend……………I'm drinking beer OF COURSE !!! HELLLOOOO do you know me AT ALL??????????



3:30 comes. MIL watching her movie….Rog dozing on couch. I'm all good with this,,,I am keeping busy to myself,,,,,kids are occupied…..



MIL is dressed and ready to go back to Daytona. Roger gets phone call…,has to do a showing (house). Are you Fucking Kidding Me?? You mother is dressed, packed and ready to go back to Daytona……NOW you have to do a showing???



GOD…..K, I can deal with it…12 years living with a realtor, I'm okay. But his mother has NO clue as to WHY he MUST work on a SUNDAY at 4PM !! Just out of the blue. He sets her up with another movie online…..I walk thru with my beer and she askes for one…..only half…..Hey, I am more than accommodating.. Mrs. Nice.



Pour her half a beer in a glass as asked…..I am polite as can be…meantime I am running around trying to keep occupied…what am I supposed to do? Sit and watch her watch movies??



Logan FINALLY gets home from boating with his friend, the kids say their goodbyes and Roger drives away with her……………she won't leave till both kids are there….totally understandable. I gave her pics of the kids and a family pic, I hugged her..thoroughly. I mean, I really hugged her. Not some half hearted effort. I hugged….and I meant it.





How do I feel? I am emotionally confused, and exhausted.



This woman is 72 years old. She will never travel here again. She came here to see her grandkids….MY kids. My son is the only one to carry on the family name in HER family. This is my husband's mother. He will probably never see her again….THAT is crushing to me. I can't imagine how he must feel………that hurts me to my core. He will never express that to me. But I know he thinks about it. He has to. How can he not? I can't imagine being in his shoes and saying goodbye to his mother for the last time………………Crushes me just to type it. It just hurts….



K, this is just too long for anyone to read……Kudos to you that stuck it out….Thank you……



Time to get the kids to bed and me showered and smelling pretty…hopefully I can get laid again tonight…………………………



Love you all….



Cheers!!!!



Vicki

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